choosing doubt as a philosophy is akin to choosing immobility as a means of transportation
--yann martel

Saturday, June 12, 2010

ctj

i am 
a son, a brother, an uncle, a grandson, 
a teacher, a returned missionary, a boss, 
a boyfriend, a lifelong friend, 
a roommate, a student,
a photographer, a guitar-playin’ man,
a son of God. 

i am 
considerate. I am shy. I am lean. I am stressed. I am concerned. I am fuzzy.  I am attached. I am caring. I am fair-skinned. I am loving. I am strong. I am foolish. I am lost. I am intelligent. I am frugal. I am nice. I am searching. I am healthy. I am sensitive. I am young. I am sweaty. I am determined. I am chill. I am nerdy. I am tired. I am grateful. I am hungry. I am in love.

i like
the smell of grass. I like lifting. I like holding hands. I like burgers. I like wearing headphones. I like the first scoop of peanut butter. I like looking into her eyes. I like finishing a book. I like eating ice cream. I like learning new things. I like driving alone. I like working hard. I like making her smile. I like hearing thank you. I like expressing my feelings. I like being heard. I like making a difference. I like listening to the rain. I like doing something unexpected.

i dislike
pickles. I dislike arrogance. I dislike dishonesty. I dislike broccoli. I dislike having gas. I dislike failure. I dislike busywork. I dislike insincerity. I dislike dirt. I dislike my bad habits. I dislike making mistakes. I dislike being so worried.

i want
love. I want joy. I want knowledge. I want security. I want to see. I want peace. I want simplicity. I want to go. I want a family. I want to understand.

i need
closeness. I need a hand. I need direction. I need the spirit.

i
care. I pray. I sleep. I stress. I seek. I desire. I struggle. I eat. I study. I worry. I sing. I read. I listen. I spend. I cook. I ask. I work. I cry. I plan. I fail. I repent. I move on. I obey. I yearn. I help. I laugh. I love.

i am
a sinner; yet, I am a saint.

c. johnson